working for a simple life, life aint simple..

...i'm tired and sick, but I don't wanna be alone.

I'm back...

Feeling better today, even though I've been in work. It's probably because I got a good lie in and the smelly one wasn't in work today *cheeky smile*

I'm in the Big Issue! The ...instore Big Issue that is, not the other, more famous-ish one.

Note the quality production, Comic Sans all round.

Notice how they spelt my bloody name wrong, even though Jenny (Hello Jenny!) written my name down correctly, it's AEL not EAL!! Morons.

Tonight I watched Underworld: Evolution with Scott and Ste, as expected it was fucking rubbish. Atleast it was good to get out of the house.

Not much to talk about today so i'll try and post a link (they're not working properly for some reason, they cut off the rest of my post)

This new style of wind turbineis pretty cool, it should hopefully shut those moany old bastards up that don't like the ones that looks like fans. More info on the Quiet Revolution here

I've uploaded a song that i've had for a long time that i'd like to share, just because. I downloaded it from Mercedes a while back while they where doing a free Mix Tape thing so it's all legal and stuff

Sebastian
Tellier - La Ritournelle

enjoy

i know i haven't said enough...

...i know we haven't said enough.

Michael is in a rubbish mood and isn't going to update properly tonight.

I've done absoloutely nothing today and feel like i'm going nowhere, wooooooooooo.


I've been playing in photoshop and made a new logo. Even though I liked the handwritten one it was too hard to reproduce for other things that I plan on doing.
If you can't see the logo properly or it has a funny shaded box over it, it's probably because you're using a shit browser, e.g. Internet Explorer.

Going to bed now, will post again when i'm feeling better.

listening to mates of state - running out

picking fights with myself and my friends..

...and my friends, threatening to do me in...


So first post of the week... The weekend was pretty tiring...

Went shopping to ASSSSDA very early on Saturday, it was actually pretty quiet so there were no fat old granny types to get in my way and I didn't get to test out Craig's queuing theory (click Gooseania on the right and look for "Girls love guys with great queuing skills", I can't get my links to work). Anyway, I bought some Basil, Thyme and Chive herb plants, a bag of baby spinach, some baby sweetcorn and mangetout, blueberries, grapes and some pear wholegrain yoghurt. I forgot to get some honey for my herbal teas so mum will have to buy me some tomorrow.

Saturday night was Scott's birthday party, here is my bestest friend with too many cocktail sausages in his mouth...and looking a bit like pob....


HAHAHAHAHA, sorry.
After 3 pints of Banana Bread Beer and a lot of alcoholic um bongo we all went to Le Bateau and danced around a lot, I was so tired that I ended up just leaning against the wall and bopping my head and moving my feet.

Sunday I just stayed in bed, I didn't feel bad but just couldn't be bothered moving except to get breakfast and tea, I finally got out of bed when the second half of the snooker started, about 8 o'clock

Monday, I woke up feeling alright, cooked a Fritata after I saw it been made on 'Taste' on Sky Three... Here it is..

It contains 1 shallot, 3 baby potatos sliced really thin 4 eggs and a big handfull of spinach, needed cheese but couldnt be bothered grating it. It looked good, tasted alright but was feelin a bit bleh towards the end. I think 4 eggs was a bit much for little old me.
I think for the first time ever i've managed to do the 5 fruit and veg a day thing, it's so much effort, 2 handfulls of spinach, bag of dried cranberries, baby sweetcorn, mangetout, handfull of blueberries in some pear yoghurt and a load of grapes. Was still very hungry after work, even ate a crisp butty and peanut butter on toast.
Thats it for today, oh, my leg feels a bit broken, don't know what i've done to it. Hoping it fixes itself over night though.


Here is the cool lamp i bought from Ikea

It's bendy and very bright so has been waking me up in the morning.
Last image for tonight

It was on some packaging for bamboo canes in work, it just made me laugh, I wonder if having to carry all the heavy boxes in work is going to make my back explode...

bye d bye
listening to Final Fantasy

sunshine in the morning...

...heading for the open road.


Look, an actual post before midnight. I'm going to bed early because I woke up early today and have to get up early tomorrow too.

Today I went Ikea at 10:30! I bought a funky lamp but it uses halogen bulbs so I can't do the daylight bulb thing that I was writing about in a previous post. I think i've already broke it a litle bit already because the clamp it uses to stay on my desk is made out of plastic and I tightened it too much, i'll upload photos tomorrow, it looks cool and should help me wake up in the morning.
After Ikea we went to PC World and played with the iMacs G5s with the iSight

they are pretty cool. I think another iMac will be my next computer.
I already have this one..

..which I think has a good long while to last me before I get a new one.

What else.... I've been readin my 'Stay Healthy, Be Lazy' book (by the people that make 'innocent' smoothies) it's very good, but i'm almost too lazy to do any of the things in there except the drink lots of water bit and eating properly. The exercise and state of mind part is what I am lacking at the minute.

I might start uploading music to see if people will come and visit but I don't know how much of a good idea that is, I get most of my stuff off other people anyway.

I'm gonna go to bed now.
Currently listening to Joanna Newsom..
Bye d bye

these are the sounds..

...of days that have passed.

Didn't post yesterday, can't remember why, probably being moody, lazy or a bit of both which is usual for me.

I woke up feeling pretty good today, had breakfast, made dinner, watched the Daily Politics. (seriously, I do watch this programme when i'm in and awake) They were doing an OB on energy saving things like lightbulbs and solar power. All of the old people that were asked about it said they wouldn't bother with any of it as it is too expensive and they would die before they got their money back on it, basically.
Anyway, solar power is good, every house should have it (you'll have to imagine to links to websites with interesting articles on this, do a search kiddies)
Ian Duncan Smith had a good idea but I can't be bothered talking about him.

I went to work today, 4 til 7, three bloody hours in work is almost pointless, atleast it only costs me literally pennies to get to work on my bike.
Speaking of my bike, I seem to attract wankers in small cars. e.g. Micras, Fiestas and Ka's, they like to overtake me on busy roads even though i'm doing the speed limit or faster.
I've been told by my dad and brothers to try and kick their wing mirrors off 'Road Rash' style but I haven't got the skills to do that and would probably get caught knowing my luck.

Going Ikea tomorrow to buy a lamp, have to wake up early. Also going food shopping on Saturday so I can buy loads of veg so I can get cooking properly, I haven't used the microwave sinceI posted about nearly blowing the thing up. I might buy some ready grown herb plants because my last attempt at growing my own from seeds failed because I got lazy.

Going to bed now because it's nearly 3 in the morning, oops.

Want to talk about.....
Tattoo designs
emdotdee names
..forgotten..

currently listening to eels.
bye d byee

a complication you could do without...

....and that's why I can't tell you....

Since Thursday i've been to the cinema to see Just Friends, Jarhead, Cry_Wolf and Brokeback Mountain. Jarhead was the most enjoyable of them all, Brokeback was good but seemed to go on for ages, Cry_Wolf was your pretty average teen horror flick rubbish and Just Friends was your pretty average teen romance flick that actually made me laugh in parts but was just bad overall....

*ten minutes later*

aaaargh, I don't know what to write about about, I'm in a strange mood. Things aren't going anywhere at the moment and I don't know where to start to change it all.
Fuck this.
to bed.....

it's not the same without you...

You may have noticed that in my last posts I haven't used any capital letters. I don't really have a good reason for doing it other than like the 'design' aspect of it (hmmm, to explain I think that titles work better with small letters, e.g emdotdee looks better than EmDotDee)
Aaaaaaaaanyway, I've decided it looks a bit stupid when used on large amounts of text so from now I will try and keep the proper grammar/punctuation thing going on to keep the place looking smart.

Ok, things I need to update on.
Just over a week ago I was playing around with my graphics tablet in Photoshop and while doodling I made a shape that look like an eye. I copied this and mirored it to create 2 eyes and decided to move on from there..
over about a week I gave it a proper facial shape and gave him some different expressions to play with. Even though I had no idea of what i was going to do with it I gave the character some random identites in the form of a pirate, a ninja, a guy with an afro, a chav (needs more burberry though) and finally an emo kid.
i've made an animation which goes through each of the faces for you to see here, this is 30% of its original size so it's been a pretty big thing to work on.

i currently need a name and a purpose for him.


Next...
For this first time in over a year I went out shopping for clothes (seriously) i've been wearing pretty much the same clothes for 2 years which is pretty bad. I didn't/don't go out much so they don't look bad, atleast I don't think they look bad anyway.
I bought 2 pairs of pants, I managed to stay away from jeans/denim as I hate them and think that denim is pretty evil.
I also got 1 long sleeve top, 2 t-shirts and a belt, spent about £43 which is not bad at all. Thanks to Claire who allowed me to drag her around and use her as a style (ha!) consultant and bag minder while I tried stuff on :-)
In the evening me and Scott went the cinema to see 'Jarhead' but it wasn't being shown so we saw 'Just Friends' for a laugh. It made me laugh but it was pretty damn bad as you would expect.

Today, well its nearly 4 o'clock Saturday morning so Friday I had work which was easy. Arranged a bay and filled it with new and ugly plates and mugs, then I cleaned up the rest of the plates because they had gotten a mess as is usual with our shop. After this I put luggage out, had food and cleaned the shop. We had hardly any customers and the time flew which is pretty good for me.
After work I cooked a carrot onion, mushroom and quorn mince thing and some mash, it was going to be a shepphards pie but I was in a rush so left out the putting it in a dish and cooking it more in the oven part.
It was nice anyway, Quorn mince is great stuff.
Me, Scott and Ste got to see 'Jarhead' which was pretty good, I've found that I don't like going the cinema when the place is full, too much noise of people eating, talking and playing with their phones. After the cinema we went to tescos and bought some random stuff as we usually so. I bought some Fentimans lemonade and dandelion & burdock (it's made in a 'traditional' way) they didn't have any curiosity cola in which was a shame (it tastes like the cola bottle sweets, very very nice) I also got some herbal teas, Rooibus and Vanilla, and Ginger and Mint, should be interesting.

I'm going to go to bed now, it's 4 o'clock and i'm in work at 12.
Currently listening to Sufjan Stevens live that I downloaded a while ago and is excellent, thanks to Craig of Gooseania (the link is on the right >>) for giving me the link for it.
Will listen to some Mates of State songs that i got from here... http://frontier-psychiatrist.blogspot.com/2006/01/its-changed-from-something-comfortable.html The beginning of the album is a bit meh but the songs 'Punchlines' and 'Running Out' are cool.
Bye d bye
next post Monday.

my moves are slow...

today i made myself wake up by turning the tv on and watching frasier, it would have been better if it was futurama. why do channel 4 put futurama on so early?? fools.

after making sure that i woke up i realised that i actually had an extra hour to sleep, bloody typical.

nothing interesting happened in work, tick pallets off and put stock out basically, wasn't hassled by anyone, infact the shop was pretty empty most of the time. the manager came in and checked how much money we had made... £800 pretty rubbish, we would have been lucky if we had made £1000 by the end of the night. i think the rain had scared off all the old people and i guess all the stupid bingoheads where too busy gambling their lives away.

i think our newish microwave is dying (it's ASDA's own brand which pretty much means it's a piece of crap anyway) i put one of those steamed veg things in and it started sparking, when i looked at the steam bag it had melted a hole in it. the exact same thing happened last week, it's very confusing.
i'm going to start cutting microwave meals out of my diet (unless i'm making something at work) because it's only benefits are cooking things fast. microwave meals are full of crap and if you try and cook anything healthy the microwaves blast away any of the good stuff. oh well.

i had other stuff to write about but i'm too tired and my back is hurting.

stuff to talk about.
the cartoony character i've been drawing
music
film
emdotdee ideas

bye d byee

he wants it easy, he wants it relaxed...

today i woke up pretty late but i didn't feel too crappy because i went to bed earlier, tonight, i've stayed up later than i wanted, grrrr.

i've seen a lot in the news about this new 'SAD cafe' in the science museum today. i think i suffer from a little bit of SAD amongst other things so i kind of think this is a good idea but also a bit silly at the same time.
how i understand sad is that you wake up as normal but because of having no sunlight you feel depressed and have no motivation for the rest of the day.
now, if i'm waking up and feeling depressed, i'm not going to have the motivation to get up and go to this sad cafe am i?
i'm going to be thinking "go fuck off, i want to stay in bed"
anyway, to combat my own sad i'm going to get a cheapo directional lamp and a daylight bulb that recreates a proper white light. this way i can get my alarm to wake me up as normal, then i'll turn the light on to stop me falling asleep and making myself feel crappy later on.
sounds like a good plan? does to me anyway.
i need to find somewhere that sells the bulbs as i can only find a pack of 4 for £15 (i've not looked very hard) i don't want to pay this much as i've just spent £25 on 6 energy saving bulbs for my room.

things i've done today....
made chicken and sweetcorn noodles
went to town on the motorbike, walked to the doctors to get my prescription, paid for it, bought a birthday card, made them give me more hours in work and then came home.

i made some roast veg (i'm trying to make myself cook proper stuff and this was my first attempt at roasting veg) anyway, it turned out fantastic and went weoll with the cheese and spinach lattice thing. potatoes, onion, carrot and garlic covered in olive, was yum.

next i gave the rest of my chocolate away as it was makin me feel ill, i'm going to try and cut out most of the chocolate that i eat (it can stay in the crunchy nut clusters because they are fiiiiine)

i was asked to go see "the producers" with scott and ste, which started off pretty rubbish but got better once will ferrell appeared (i'm not much of a critic)

for some reason i've been drawing a strange cartoony character in photoshop, i've been giving it different hairstyles and emotions so i will post the images of that when its finished later this week, i haven't got a clue what i'm making it for though.

right, now i've stayed up a lot later than i wanted, i am going to listen to one more song and then off to bed, it shall be 'heartbeats' by jose gonzalez.

bye d byee

too damn cold..

i'm going to bed early tonight so i'm only going to do a quick post again..

today i had band practise with my band the'deleted'scenes
edit:


blogspot has been annoying me, it keeps cutting things off after i have posted a link or an image and once i publish it, the code i have written gets deleted.
grrrrrr

thats why this post kinda ends abruptly.

anyway, next post shall be on monday.
bye d bye

let me show you what i mean..

a chance to modernise..

i've kinda finished cleaning my room, as in, i've took everything off my shelves and desk space and thrown it into the centre of the room to be thrown away; kinda cleaned.

anyway, here is what it has basically looked like for a couple of years..

i had got fed up with the posters being all scruffy and most of them where of bands that i'm not even interested in anymore. the rest of the stuff that i have taken away is mainly items that i need to disconnect myself from such as little presents that i don't neccessarily want to forget but i don't need them in my life right now.

here is the after pic...

as you can see, it's mainly just bare walls but it's all a bit tidier and i have my cool new dvd/book/random storage on the wall.
i've yet to decide on all the things that are going to make the place more like a living room, i'll update about that when i do though.
think that's enough about my room for now..

work today was annoying, 3 people phoned in sick soo i had to finish off someone elses job (i did a damn good job) but that meant i couldn't get on with the delivery. no doubt the area manager will have a go at us for that, he can go fuck off!
the shop isn't very interesting but i might make a full post about it someday; introduce the characters. hehe.
gonna go bed soon, back in work at 11.
.......

i saw the arcade fire...

..in my dreams

sorry if this post is a little incoherent, i'm very tired, i promise to make a bit more sense in future....

(just a little background on what i'm goin to talk about here)....i have the alarm set on my iPod to wake me up to a playlist of music such as the arcade fire, belle and sebastian, final fantasy etc...

anyway, this morning my music woke me up as normal but i did the usual thing of leaving it on and just falling back to sleep again.
i can't remember much (because i didn't write it down when i woke up) but i recall listening to the arcade fire and then seeing a large group of people and recognising the singer, it was like i was in a music video or something. after this (the music was still playing) i remember running up a hill with someone else while trying to chase this black thing in the distance, it turned into a kind of race but instead of me just running as normal it felt like i was some sort of animation and had to refresh each time to get myself to move forwards. yes, it was crazy, i ended up giving up because i was overtaken.

this has happened before but with a song by final fantasy, i was sat in bed and waiting for a music video to come on, when the song finally started, the video that i was watching just shown the words 'final fantasy' in fancy writing. i now realise that i didn't see any images of owen pallet (the singer/violinist) was because i had never seen any pictures of him before.
i remember having a similar dream in which sufjan stevens appeared after i saw a photo of him.

ok then, now that you've read about my crazy dreams i'm sure you want to try it out. anyone else had strange music related dreams? leave a comment about it..

in other news, im glad i didn't go into work on new years day, they had about 30 customers and took less than £60 hahahahahahahahahahaha, the company is ran by idiots, i need to get out of there quick.

and finally.. i've just been paid for making this website a.m.photo so i bought myself a wacom graphire4 graphics tablet, hopefully i will become more productive with my website design and other arty jazz.

end..

day 1...

ok, i have 15 minutes to post before january the 1st is over.

well, the whole of 2005 was pretty crap so i'm hoping to document each day of 2006 to see if it gets any better..

today i've started my attempt at making my bedroom more 'homey' or grown up as it where.
this began with taking all of my posters down and putting up a massive dvd rack/storage that can hold about 150 dvds, alas i dont have that many dvds so various books have been placed on the shelves for now.

my walls look incredibly bare now so i shall be be putting some of my photographs up.

hmm, i have lots of stuff to do and i just want to post this so i'll end now, more tomorrow...